Have you ever experienced a door slamming shut in your cosmic space? In a moment of quiet reflection, meditation, or calm physical activity, sometimes a knowing comes. It’s unmistakable. You can almost hear the door slam, and with finality and certainty you sense that a certain possibility or pathway has just shut down.
I have felt this energy twice—once upon hearing the news of another’s pregnancy, and realizing that I was completely content to have not chosen children in this lifetime. Boom! I heard the possibility of having children slam shut. I know that the menopausal process started for me at that exact moment, and that the cessation of mother-possibilities in this lifetime will be effortless because so clearly chosen.
The second time was more recently. I, like many of us, have long balanced a vocation and an avocation. I have walked an old world path and a new earth path. I have known that I would continue to tread both roads until the time came to move on. Just a few days ago, I heard the door to my day job slam shut. Thud! And just like that, my energy for the old job pathway stopped.
Like my cycles, it may take some months for my physical world to catch up with this clear decision to stop. But there is no doubt in my mind that the job will stop. And instead of mentally struggling with the stay/go decision all these months, all I had to do was wait and listen for the sound of a door slamming shut.