Twenty-some years ago, I realized that I prefered to play on the all-girls team. I began a process of coming out as a lesbian, to one person here and one there. Friends, family members, colleagues, hotel clerks: each person raised the same anxiety in my space. Should I tell them? What will they say? Eventually I got over myself, and now I just am gay and I don’t worry about it and I don’t censor myself.
Three or four years ago, I had a huge spiritual awakening. I went to workshops led by psychics, I meditated with the angels, I started communicating with my dog telepathically with the help of animal communicators. At first, I censored myself again. When people asked what classes I was taking, I said, “meditation classes.” But really, they were clairvoyant development and spiritual growth classes. Now I try to just stand in my truth and tell the vet, “My dog says. . . ” Yeah right. It’s really hard to do, but I am walking free of the spiritual closet. I am coming out as Spirit-in-a-body.
And yet, with all of that practice, one of the very hardest things is to acknowledge my own ability. With so many lifetimes and years of dimming my light to fit in (remember middle school? high school?), it’s really hard to just say, Yup, I’m good. I am a good writer. And to say it from a place of truth, not ego.
I am holding myself in the integrity of walking my talk and speaking my truth. So when I want to “just not write that part,” it usually means I just need to step out of the closet and say it.
What is it that Spirit wants you to say that feels scary to say? How would the world shift if you walked your talk all the time?